Before I ventured from the Great White North, to the further point on this planet from where I grew up, I picked up a moleskin. I wanted to do some thinking… writing… learning… whilst on my journey, and thought keeping it contained would be a good idea. That and, let’s face it, moleskins are pretty cool (at least the make you feel cool just by possessing one).
I have done lots of thinking, and have learned a lot. Unfortunately, I haven’t written much of it down. I am starting to more. I kind of want to keep this journal as a reminder… almost like a textbook from this period of my life. And because of that, I don’t want to write just any old thing in it. I want to record things that inspired me… changed my philosophy… my beliefs… my point of view. As well as my emotions… confusion… love… joy.
Back in January I decided to take a few days and dream a bit with God. Have you ever done this? I suck at it. But I gave it a go anyways. I wanted to sort out what I really wanted in life. What I really wanted to do with my life. What I really wanted. It sounds a bit like a selfish tear, but it’s not. These are/were dreams. Can you ever go too big with a dream? Isn’t part of the makeup of a dream the possibility that it may never happen, because it’s so outrageous? But with that comes the possibility that it can!
Like I said. I suck at it. But I was flipping through it yesterday… thinking about what I might record next (it happened to be a theory about atonement…go figure!), and I came across my “Dreams” page (which is added to every now and then). What I have found in life and with God, is that the response we get, or the realization of our dreams, may not always look like what we have been expecting. And sometimes they do. The first two dreams I had written down are one of each. And they are being realized in my life right now.
The first, was to be married to a woman who:
- loves me for me
- understands me for me
- loves my Jesus
- shares my passions
- likes to dream
- is my best friend
In 27 days, this dream will be a reality. Jo is an enormous blessing in my life. Every day I have is better with her in it. I have not hidden from her in any way shape or form, and she has not recoiled… but instead has stepped forward and embraced. She is an amazing person.
The second, was to make a living doing something I love to do. The more time I spend doing research assisting, the more appealing continuing my education becomes. New possibilities have come with my jobs, and what seemed, frankly, impossible, aren’t looking so anymore. I have no problems getting up at 5am because I love what I am doing. This was the one I didn’t see coming. For the first time in a while, I love my job.
I’ll round off the post with a couple other dreams that have made it onto the page that maybe aren’t as significant, but are still things I want to do:
1. Meet with and pose for picture with Weird Al.
2. Learn to dance.
3. Play the violin (specifically, Thunderstruck by AC/DC)
Yeah, those last ones are a little anticlimactic, but whatever, it’s my life, I’ll dream how I want!







